Ways I'm Socially Anxious - by Anonymous ‘17
1.
I can’t speak publicly, and
When asked what I’d like to
Order at a restaurant, my
Heart begins to race.
If they happen to bring the wrong
Dish I’ll simply suffer through it,
Because it’s easier
Than having to talk to the
Waitress again.
I don’t enjoy hanging out
With people outside of
My best friends.
But don’t worry, don’t be
Offended, It isn’t you.
It’s the concept.
2.
I communicate best through text,
Because you can’t stutter through text,
And it isn’t impolite
Not to look you in the eye.
Not that I will in person anyway.
I’m not good at talking
To people
And most times I prefer the company of dogs
Particularly my own.
3.
I find solace in my Art
And on Tumblr,
I don’t like the concept
Of being around people,
I won’t make plans
With you
And I won’t assume
We’re friends
Unless you say we are.
4.
I have a resting bitch face
And sometimes I put in
Headphones
Just so I won’t have to
Talk to you.
But it’s not because I don’t like you
It’s because I don’t particularly
Like me
And maybe you might not
Like me either.
I’ll turn music
Up
So I don’t accidentally hear
You hoping to have conversations
With my hollow head.
I cast my eyes
Down
Don’t dare look at
The gestures you
Generate to get my
Attention.
5.
I need constant
Comfort
Reassurance
And you’ll render
Me annoying.
I’ll assume so
Anyway.
6.
I don’t like parties
Or particularly pople
Filled events
Unless it’s a concert.
Cause in music I confide I find comfort
And I know
People there
Find that same solace
In singers voices
And guitarist’s riffs.
7. I don’t want to be
Reading this or
Standing here or
Stuck in school
At all.
As I stand here I am conquering
The quiver of my voice
And the quaking in my
Knees
Not fear
But me.
8.
I will not
Smile at you as you walk by
Because I’m afraid you won’t
Smile back.