Letter To D.D / I'm Not Scared of You Anymore
Are you happy?
Are you happy you lied?
Are you happy you got away with it?
Are you happy I was left without a brother?
My best friend, my protector
The one I told everything too
Are you happy you destroyed my family?
My parents divorced because they couldn’t handle the pain that was inside them tearing them apart death
They say death brings you closer, but for my family it only tore us apart
How do you live everyday knowing you shot my brother and his life was in your hands but instead of calling 911, you call your father first while my brother laid on the floor and bled to death?
He laid on the floor holding where the bullet just impaled him
His last words were, “You just shot me”
He was a brother, son, nephew, grandson, and a cousin
Loved to hunt, fish, play soccer
He was jokester and always said what was on his mind
Was a pro at doing the rubix cube and making youtube videos
He knew how to crack a joke at the most weirdest times and make a whole room laugh
He was a straight A student in all honor classes
He received a certificate from the president at his 8th grade graduation for never missing school from grade K to 8th
Not one day
Are you happy you took that from us?
He was one of your only friends
You were an outsider and my brother believed that everyone deserved to have a friend so he became yours
At least that's what he thought
Are you happy five years has gone by and you're still off the hook?
While you live your life shooting up drugs, I’m finding a way to find justice for my brother
They say the good die young, and for my brother that is true
I’m eighteen now and i’m going to do all that I can to give my brother the justice he deserves
Even if this poem is the only way
I’ll always fight for my brother, unlike the cops
I mean, I guess that's what happens when the evidence gets hidden because your uncle is a cop
But, I’ll try my hardest to tell my brothers story
The real story
In all reality my brothers life wasn't the only life taken,
My cousin almost overdosed because he couldn't handle the pain of losing his best friend,
My dad almost went back to drinking
My mom almost went off the edge
And the list goes on
I had to grow up faster than any other thirteen year old
I had to be there for my baby sister who couldn't understand why her brother never came back home.
Most importantly I had to be there for myself because none of my friends understood the pain I was going through
They were always there for me, but never understood the reality
I learned to never take anything for granted because it could be here one day and gone the next
I learned to be strong
To do everything in my power to make my brother proud
I learned to not be scared of you anymore
